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• have (heart) palpitaions 두근거림, 정상이상으로 빨리뛰는 심장
• rudimentary = basic
• upend 뒤집다 
• set/stand something on end - 끝을 세우다 or 바로 세우다
• have nerve =. have audacity
• pout about something - 에 대해서 입을 삐죽하다
• whirlwind 굉장히 빠르고 예상치못하게 전개되는
• musings : 깊은 고찰에서 나온 생각과 코멘트
• fabled 전설적인
• put a pin in my work = to take a break (with plans to resume the thing later)
• painstakingly 공들여서 , 피땀어린
• pedantic 본질보다 보여지는거나 사소한 디테일과 형식에 매달리는 것
• distress 스트레스, 도움이 절실한 상황
• unwavering 다른데 쳐다보지 않는 움직이지 않는, 계속되는
• prudent 현명하고 조심스러운

As a child, I was always in distress. My home didn't feel like home. My childhood was just a whirlwind. Because of this background, I became very prudent at very early age. I found my frinds in the class immature, which actually is supposed to be since they were literally kids. I was able to share musings getting grasp of big pictures rather than being pedantic, when the friends were pouting about not getting enough video game times. It was around 10years ago I met her in the school. Ms.M was pretty insightful and she noticed that I was acting a little differently. After class she would make me stay in the classroom and ask some questions about me and my family. I thought she had nerve that she was asking about something that isn't within normal social boundary. But this actually upended my life and all my perspective. because of her unwavering support for me to persue my dream and a normal life, I put a pin in being grumpy towards her and finally opened up with her. I was so used to having high heart palpitaion out of random, surprisingly, I was able to cure this talking a lot with her. She's not one of those fabled historians of something, still I give her name whenever I get asked who I admire the most. The whole process was pretty painstakingly difficult. But she set me on end, with rudimentary knowledge.

I only have the most rudimentary grasp of the language. My knowledte is only rudimentary.

She upended the chessboard halfway through the game because she was losing.

The intern has some nerve asking for a raise on her first day. You really have a nerve.

painstaking research

The animal was in distress, signs of distress, that caused extreme emotional distress.

a whirlwind tour/visit, an emotional whirlwind, a whirlwind romance, at a whirlwind pace /// My life has been a whirlwind lately. 

He upended the can, and swallowed. 

musing: 생각깊은 musing comments, musing responses

She pouts her lips when she's putting on lipstck.

The fabled creature

her unwavering faith, support, commitment 

• win by a whisker 간발의 차로 이기다
• rant and rave about = talk loudly and angrily in an uncontrolled way
• I read you loud and clear = I can understand exactly.
• tertiary (tertiary education, tertiary industry)
• set in one's way - when they have fixed habits and ideas which they will not easily change, (old fashioned.)
• utilize = to use something in an effective way
• in part = to some degree
• out to = to be determinded to, aiming to do
• on the spur of the moment 계획에 없던, 갑작스러운 (a spur of the moment decision)
• hindrance 장애물 (without hindrance, any hindrances)
• aggregate 것ㅌ - 집합체 = total (형용사로)
• janky - very bad in quality or condition
• imminent - happening soon
• impending - something unpleasant or unwanted that is going to happen soon

Andy was very smart but sneaky. Like, street smart, he didn't even take tertiary education. He won by a whisker in the competition by making the other candidate distracted by a couple ranting and raving about some news near the set. He knows how to utilize situations and people around him. However, he couldn't do anything when he faced the imminent accident in his car. Often our brain stops when we see an obvious impending situation. That urgency serves as a hinderance in part. He's now in hospital. The public room was pretty much an aggregate of janky things. The room was full of old peole, and they were so set in their ways, his attempt to manipulate their mind was like a water off duck's back. When I got to his hospital room, I could read him loud and clear. He was out to escape the room. That was not a spur of the moment decision.

You should spend less time ranting and raving about how unfair your professor is and spend mroe time actually studying the material.

impending/imminent disaster. Her death is imminent. Their impending marriage.

Snowflakes are loose aggregates of ice crystals. An aggregate profit of $10.2 millions.

The company is simply out to make larger profit.

As people get older, they often become set in their ways.

The vitamins come in a form that is easily utilized by the body. / The library's great collection allowed me to utilize many rare resources.

Stress worsens the problem

The accident were due in part to the bad weather.

The level of blood gluose depend in part on what you eat.

• roll out the red carpet = to welcome someone as a very important person
• dawn on -에게 분명해지다, 깨닫게 되다, 이해되기 시작하다
• peter out = gradually becoming smaller, weaker, less 
• hold one's tongue = to not speak 참는 뉘앙스
• save one's breath =  말할 가치가 없으니 숨을 아끼겠다는 뉘앙스 (레)
• intergrity 궁극적으로는 무결점의 상태를 말한다고 함- 진실성, 첨렴성, 윤리적으로도 엄격한 기준을 가지고 일을 처리하는 것
• parse through = examine, understand thoroghly and detaily
• delineation 딜리니에이션 - 묘사하다(clear outline, character, boundaries)
• guesswork 추측으로한일, 추측하는과정
• squircle = squarish circle
• axis 축
• asymptote 점근선 그래프에서 곡선과 같은 방향 하지만 절대 만나지 않는
• configure = 설정하다, 설정을 바꾸다 (컴퓨터 시스템에서)
• a laptop configuration consists of GB, SSD, hard disk, USB ports

If there will be a senier level member joining us, they would roll out the red carpet. But no candidates match what they were looking for. If one matches the level of intergrity, they lack of confidence. And one was really good at configuring layouts to optimise user experience, but they relyed on guesswork a lot so wasn't a good fit. It's just like a curve and it's asymptote. (The CEO is in the middle of axis, not even close.) Becuase it was really hard to hire a right person, I had to parse through the documents on my own. It's already been a while since it dawned on them that they need more people. So HR team posted a role on many websites with delineation. There were so many candidates but they were all same so the leader just saved his breath. Before I left the job, I wanted to tell them they need a compromise, but they wouldn't listen to me, so I held my tongue. I hope you keep your intergrity and not peter out. If there's no squircle on the menu, you should control radious.

it started to dawn on me (분명해지기 시작했다) The meaning suddenly dawned on me. It finally dawned on him that she'd been joking. It suddenly dawned on me that I hadn't eaten all day.

The romantic relationship petered out after the summer. It began to peter out

 might as well save my breath 레-명사/ 리e - 동사

The team had to parse through thousands of lines of code to identify the bug. 

• lead up to 그 일이 일어나기 전까지
• in lieu = instead, in lieu of = instead of
• deprecate = 승인하지않다, 부정하다(비난, 부정적)
• inquistive - asking many questions, too curious (negative)
• asynchronous = not occuring at the same time, independently.
• sporadically 산발적으로 sometimes but not regularly or continuously
• low haning fruit = something that is easy to obtain
• have a knack for = have a natural ability, skill to do that.
• interpersonal skills = social skills, people skills
• take a stab at (뛰어나진 못해도, 자주나 잘 하는 건 아니라도) 시도해보다
• take the fall for. = to accept the blame for something another person did
• up one's alley = 취향에 맞는, 딱 맞는, 

In this company, communications happen remotely. Because of that all the employees work asynchronously, but scheduled and unscheduled meetings happen sporadically too. This style was actually up my alley, also given that my interpersoanl skills are very bad, I was in love with this style. Once new hire joined the team and started to turn the tide. He scheduled regular meetings in lieu of messenger communication, and all the team members deprecated. He was in the provocation period, and leading up to the end of the provocation, wanted to take a stab at for new methods. We kinda put our foot down firmly saying we're not gonna take the fall for, and I thought he had a knack for annoying people, but this challenging, inquistive attitude grabbed CEO's attention so he got promoted right away. It wasn't low hanging fruits, so i started to believe him as a leader and decided to take a leap of faith. 

I was very anxiois in the time leading up to the event. What exactly led up to his resignation? Many voters were still undicided in the days leading up to the election. Leading up to the wedding, I was really nervous.

People who are self-deprecating downplay their abilities because they are humble -or want to appear that way.

I love books so volunteering at the library is up my alley. That's right up my alley, I'd love to do it.

• throw hands - 주먹질하다
• negate 부정하다
• every inch = exactly like or everything
• squeak through(by) 간신히 manage to pass, survive, win ...
• hit upon (on)  = to suddenly have an idea
• shake off =떨쳐내다 (병, 경찰차, 나쁜것들) get rid of an illness (shake off the cold)
• spell out = explain something in a very clear way with details.
• shelf life = the lenghth of time that something remains useful, popular
• second that motion = agree with the idea/suggestion
• tender 일, 계약에 대한 가격을 offer 제시하다 (공식적으로) (put out to tender, put in the tender)
• flat out = as fast (hard) as possible, directly, simply 
• chronological 연대순으로, 시간순으로 (in reverse chronological order)
• as a matter of course 자연스러운것 당연한순서같은 것

Every inch of him reminds me of John, my old friend. He was a locally popular rapper a few years ago. Once he threw hands with his stalker, and because of that he got under arrest and had to spell out everything chronologically and that kind of negate the work he achieved until then. He went to the prison. He could've jusst shaken off that stalker as opposed to flat out throwing hands. I was involved, but somehow I managed to squeak through with a warning. One other prisoner recognized him and tendered some work for him. "You better do it, your shelf life is over." He got mad at him at first but he knew being treated like this is a matter of course..in here, and then hit on an idea to use him to get out of prison, so he answered "I second that motion." 

Dude, he's gonna throw hands when he finds out you kissed his gf.

Alcohol can negate the effects of some medicines.

She looked every inch a vampire in her costume. Every inch of her bedroom wall is covered with photos of pop stars.

I squeaked through (by) the driver's test. I thought for sure I had failed the exaa, but I managed to squeak through with a D.

When we first hit on the idea, everyone thought It would never work.

a motion : a formal suggestion made in a meeting. (I'll second that = i agree with you)

running flat out, working flat out , he flat out said he wouldn't do it.

• (have a) big mouth 입이 가볍다, 싸다
• tootle off 걸어서 멀어지다 (가벼운 manner)
• one of these days = sometime in the near future
• be at fault 잘못하다
• throw one a curve = to surprise someone (difficult or unpleasant)
• bail out (of) 그만두거나 탈출하다, (도와주단 뜻도 있는듯)
• on the blink = not working correctly
• not hear of = not allow (특히 계산할때) he wouldn't hear of it!
• make a mountain out of a molehill 사소한 걸 크게 만들어내다 호들갑떨다
• stick something out -을 내밀다 (뻗다)
• lay the table / lay your gun on the floor 테이블 세팅하다/ 총 내려놔 (lay your head on) 머리 기대
• reimburse 상환하다

The oven started to act up again, it's on the blink! That was an emergency. We were prepping for a big surprise party for Sue. I was supposed to cook turkey for the main dish, and Chase would come soon to help me with laying the table, so I was in panic. I didn't want to look like I was making a mountain out of a molehill, so I tried to calm down and call Chase to ask him to pick up a baked turkey from the supermarket. I was going to reimburse him later. He came to the place with the turkey, and he wouldn't hear of it. I felt grateful. I should treat him to some nice meal one of these days. However, Jane threw me a curve call. Her big mouth ruined the surprise, and she bailed out. We all were so upset and Sue arrived. She said nobody is at fault and she was very touched. She suddenly tootled off and brought Jane back. And she said it was actually her plan to surprise us! She stuck out her tongue and her eyes were full of mischief. 

There was a collision between the two vehicles, but it wans't clear who was at fault.
The customers were sent the wrong bills and it turned out that the new billing system was at fault.
We didn't have enough proof that they were at fault.

A few of the questions on the final exam really threw me a curve.

The TV is on the blink again!

He opened his door and stuch his head out.
She made a face and stuck out her tongue at him.
He stuck his hand out and said good evening.

I'll use my own card and it'll get reimbersed later.

• stimulate 자극하다(encourage) 촉진하다 stimulation
• cuckoo = silly, foolish person
• man of the hour 화제의 인물, 영광의 주인공 (결혼식때 주인공 등)
• work one's fingers to the bone 정말 열심히(오래) 일하다
• live from hand to mouth =extra 없이 딱 풀칠할 정도로 살다
• in a fog = dazed, unaware, confused
• made to order = 주문제작같이 완벽한
• frown on 못마땅해 하다 반대하다
• bring home the bacon = provide the necessities of life. / be successful
• run in the family 혈통에 흐르다
• wide array = a great variety of
• distrust 불신

At Andy's wedding, his wife Amanda was the woman of the hour. Her novels really stimulate curiosity in people and provoke thoughts. I met her for the first time, and she was amazing, I'd like to talk about her today. The environment she grew up was just like made to order for her to become a writer. Intelligence runs in the family, and her family just lived from hand to mouth working in art field, that was enough to stimulate her sensitivity in everyday things. When she first said she was going to study literature instead of math, her desire wasn't frown on by her parents. If anything they provided her wide array of resources and there was no distrust in the family. Now with the supports, She's become to bring home the bacon. Especilly a story of a man who lives in a fog all the time, the most famous novel of her, now represents a cuckoo in mordern society. Of course, she had to work her fingers to the bone to be successful. 

stimulate investment...stimulate economic growth...
it stimulates students to think...sexually stimulating to men...

When I get up, I'm in a fog for an hour. "I was in a haze until the anesthetic wore off"

Smoking is frown upon in many societies. 
Personal phone calls are frown on at work.

Both of us bring home the bacon.
Ten years later, a boy brought home the bacon.

Intelligence seems to run in that family.
We're all ambitious - it seems to run in the family

• up a tree = in a difficult or embarrassing situation - I'm up a tree or DRUNK
• lose face 체면을 잃다
• hit below the belt = very insulting / unfair
• hotshot 잘나가고 똑똑한 사람, 성공적인 사람 (mr.hotshot = 비꼬는 말투)
• deploy 배치하다-effectiverly (개발에선 배포하다)
• lure 미끼, 유인하다 꾀다
• decay 썩다 맛이가다 - 점점 나빠지다
• bystander 구경꾼, 서서 구경하는사람들, 옆에있지만 연루되지 않은 사람들 
• on the rocks - likely to fail soon
• make a beeline for
• at any rate = whatever happens, more exactly, more clearly

I'm running my own business, and I'm up a tree. One of the competitors kinda hit below the belt and I'm left reeling with that. I'm known as a hotshot, young and talented, I was on tv shows several times. I mean, I'm really good at deploying resources but still need to learn a lot of things. I know it. The lure of fame is toxic. Now I admit I was a little cocky, and my company is on the rocks! I lured some intestors to put some money on this. They have no idea this is actually decaying. When I have to attend a conference, I just make a beeline for washroom. At any rate, I don't want to lose face. I should find a way to salvage dying business. I shouldn't be a bystander of my own problem.

John was a successful businessman who had been steadily climbing the corporate ladder. However, his aggressive tactics and cut-throat attitude had landed him in trouble. His latest scheme hit below the belt, and he found himself up a tree with no easy way down.

Realizing the error of his ways, John decided to deploy a different strategy. He reached out to his colleagues, offering to work together and build something great. Using his charisma and charm as a lure, he slowly but surely regained their trust.

Over time, John's reputation began to decay, and his old ways seemed to be on the rocks. But he persevered, always staying true to his new approach. And eventually, he made a beeline for the top, achieving even greater success than before.

She was afraid that she would lose face if she admitted her mistake.

I know she really wants the promotion, but she really hit me below the belt by telling the boss about my personal problems.

the way in whick the company deploys its resources.

the lure of fame/power/money //// The lure of the city for creaive people has existed for centeries.

He had lured his victime to the house. / Companies try to lure customers with price discounts. / She was lured into the job by the offer of a high salary. 

The bodies buried in the fine ash slowly decayed.