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• You should offer a hand
• It's not letting me in. (technical difficulty)
• Words can't possibly express how grateful I am.
• Let me go get some air. I don't want to veny my anger on you.
• Has it been that long already?
• I used to, and I did until recently.
• Better late than never. It's a late bloomer.
• I'd rather not talk about it. It's a touchy subject for me.
• We worked tirelessly for this deal to go through.
• I'm still working out some of the details (곰곰이 생각, 의논 해서 세부사항 정하다)
• I don't want to rock the boat.
• I'm afraid to rock the boat. Well, it might rock the boat but it's inevitable.
• I used to ~ but now, I don't even have that kind of patience anymore.
• I don't even have the patience to look through the menu anymore.
• It took up a good chunk of my time.
• I block out 30 minutes every day to work out.
• The people from the moving company managed to lose one somehow (이사업체에서 용케도 잃어버렸더라)
• She's off today = she's not herself today
• I can't see him doing that.

• Bypass = avoid/ignore official authority
• endpoint (examples below)
• introspective 자기성찰적인 = looking inside yourself
• benevolence, benevolent 자애로운 자애
• inexorable = continuing without any possibilities of being stopped
• squiggly 꾸불꾸불한
• replicate 원본을 기반으로 비슷한 복제
• upstage - take people's attention away from someone and make them listen or look at u instead
• dough = money
• have money to burn 
• counterfactual (명사, 형용사)  
• coffee table book (they are not intended to be read from cover to cover)

I unfolded the old letter of her again, reading the squiggly handwritting. She was helping me out of benevolence. It felt like this relationship was inexorable. She might've had a lot of dough, so it isn't surprising she had money to burn helping me like this. Or was it just a bypass for her to get her permission to run for the president in the center? Showing the proof of this kind of stuff is enough to upstage. I need to stop endless counterfactual thinking. Our relationship has reached to its endpoint, ran its course a long time ago. This makes me to introspect. Now it's my turn to help someone. I could replicate what she's done to me. I picked up a coffee table book in my salon. 

We took the road that bypasses the town. 

I'm not at an endpoint of even at a midpoint in my career.
We've reached an an acceptable endpoint in this litigation.

Achiving a goal is an endpoint but it's also just a moment in time something we celebrate and move on.

Aging is an inexorable process.

squiggly lines, squiggly road 

Our cells replicate by dividing

I don't know what her job is but she certainly seems to have money to burn.

Thoughts about how an embarrssing event might have turned out differently are known to psycholosits as counterfactual thinking.

Historians talk about counterfactual things all the time

ex) hypothetical counterfactual, counterfactual questions, counterfactual history

• drill in = to teach something through repetition/ to give someone practice in sth
• interim = temporary until the permanent one exists.
  • patronizing (형) speaking/behaving towards someone as if they're stupid
    Or to be a regular customer
• condescending = treating someone as if you're more important of intelligent.
• demoralizing = 사기와 의욕을 꺾다 
• prominent = sticking out from the surface (can be easily seen or noticed)
• don't dish it if you can't take it
• hit the nail on the head = to be exactly right about something
• rando - random person (usually not welcomed, unexpected)
• flabbergasted = feeling shocked (unexpected)
• mishap = unlucky event, accident (usually not too serious)
• overshoot 너무 나가다, 정지선보다 beyond and further, 

I really appreciate my coworkers since I know they try so hard to drill me in the company stuff. When I made some components too stand out from others, they gently pointed out that they shouldn't be prominent. Although I sometimes make little mishaps, I never overshoot, so I thought I was doing pretty well. Once I asked one of them how they're so nice, and they told me they used to criticize others in the team but once their manager gave them this feedback of "don't dish it out if you can't take it" and to other people who like to patronize when they talk. Those condescending culture demoralised the team in general, and he told me they're trying to be an interim manager/advisor to new hires after the manager quit, cause they deserve to be treated nicely, they're not randos, if anything, team mambers. I was flabbergasted, and kinda hit the nail on the head.

The teacher drilled the students in the use of the passive.
An interim solution. An interim government. In the interim.... an interim job, 

It's that patronizing tone of her that I can't bear. STOP patronizing me, I understand as well as you do.

Goverment spending ontinues to overshoot. We overshot our budget this month by 12%

The low salary is very demoralising.

I hate the way he's so condescending to his staff

• celibate - 금욕하는, 금욕
• repercussion - 결과 (mostly negative)
• locale 장소 (영화나 책의 배경?) ex 놀이공원
• hatch 천장이나 바닥 수직의 문 or 부화하다 (병아리 알, 배,창고의 천장 문)
• snuggle (down/up) 비대다
• tally 합계 기록 (누적된 거라 계속 업데이트 되는)
• recency 최신, 최신의 정도
• ensue 뒤따르다 (결과가)
• a picture is worth a thousand words
• admittedly 인정은 하는데...
• deprecated 더이상 사용되지 않는
• cinephile = a person with a passonate interest in cinema
• volatile 빠르고 예상치못하게 변화하는

When he made up his mind on becoming celibate, he obviously he didn't factor in what would be ensuing. It was when he was 12 year old. On the cusp of 20, he was already in colleage, and he started to realise this is not very possible. Seeing that volatile dating experiences of his friends, he naturally started to eager something like that too. And the cinema near the campus was the locale of something happened to him. He was hanging out with his cinephile friend, Joe, and he kinda started to snuggle up with him. He felt something deep down that he want this so bad. But he always was so proud of his tally, and the recency of the body changes of himself was challenging him very much. He was afraid of repercussion of this. Joe found a deprecated hatch on the cinema floor, and they went in there. Later he said "admittedly, I went into the hatch with Joe, but nothing happened. But Joe shared his intimate pictures with him and the picture was worth a thousand words.

He regarded sex outside of marrige as sinful, he remained celibate all his life.
He discribed himself as "a reluctant celibate" 

Any decrease in tourism could have serious repercussion for the local economy.
Far-reaching repercussion

We don't keep a tally of it.

admittedly the ball was close to the line. But it wasn't out.

Food and fuel prices are very volatile in a war situation.

• sweat out toxins 땀으로 독소를 배출하다 (땀은 그런 기능을 하지는 않음)
• biomimicry
•  embezzle 횡령하다
• blast through - quickly and energetically complete a task or activity (overcoming obstables or challenges with determination and rapid progress.
• frig - to have sex / masturbate
• a lather 비누거품 (lather is more thicker and substantial than bubbles)
• augment - to increase size or value of something by adding something to it
• radically = completely, extremely
• bummed out = really depressed and sad
• second wave = second part of an event or a situation
• resurrect [레저렉트] 소생하다
• rectify 바로잡다
• strike up a friendship / conversation 시작하다 (큰 그림 안에서....?)

It was by this time last year I first met Jane. I was under treatment of depression. Jane is my neighbour. I thought she was just a lazy but very happy lady never doing anything productive. I didn't really care about her. Once she looked very bummed out and I shared her a piece of chocolate. And that day I think we struck up this precious friendship. She told me she got a job and kicked out right away at work being accused of embezzlement. It was clearly a misunderstanding, but she was too bummed out to rectify the situation and just chose to be fired. Talking with her, we realised we share a common passion, so we decided to start a business and for the last 6 months we blasted through tons of work to found our own company. After the first launch, we got so many orders and now it's a little quite. However we're waiting for a second wave as we update new products to augment our business. We're inspired by nature and we use biomimicry as our strategy. This things radically resurrect me from depression. I'm running and feel like I'm sweating out toxins!

He stood under the shower lathering himself with the soap.

• biomimicry - aims to take inspiration from natural selection solutions adopted by nature and translate the principle to human engineering.

She blasted through her to-do list and finished all the task ahead of schedule.

He would have to find a job to augument his income.

The comment just bummed me out.

If we have a second wave recession...

Jesus was resurrected from the dead, Trying to resurrect her career, 

to rectify any mistakes / errors / situation

• sullen - 뚱한
• retreat from the front - 물러나다 (의견을 바꾸다 등)
• snob - 속물? 
• pensive - quiet and thinking seriously. He looked pensive. 골똘히 생각에 잠긴
• pick up stompies 중간에 들어와서 잘못이해하고 껴드는 행동
• stranded 고립되다 (돈이 없거나 교통이 없어서)
• have one's fortune told 
• flunk out of school 성적 등이 안좋아서 쫒겨나다 (수동태로 쓰지 않는다)
• hard sell 하드셀 aggressive selling
• chuck 툭 던지다, 그만두다 관두다
• weed out 골라내서 제거하다 (약한 거 등 골라내다)
• carve out - create, make 
  • carve out a niche
  • carve out time/space
  • carve out a career
• touchy about 예민한
• autobiography 자서전
• rundown 디테일한 정보들, 축소 (사이즈나 퀄리티)
  • rundown house : 방치된 집

We were talking about politics at a cafe and when we started to mention the energy issues, this man came to our seat and began this hard sell. He invented a new solar power panel that everyone can use, so the thing he found the most proud was that it can help people stranded somewhere with this portable panel. Man, I can't carve out time for hearing the rundown of your invention, you're picking up stompies. However, Emma found this practical for camping so she bought one. The man is going to another man in other table who looks pretty pensive. Emma told me I looked sullen and I didn't have to look like this. I got upset and chucked the car key to her and left. Why am I so touchy about people pointing out my attitude? At home, I went to my room and stood in front of my shelf. What do I want to read? I weeded out boring books and eventually I picked an autobiography. This person flunk out of school young and after having had someone his fortune told, he decided to travel. I felt like I am a snob tonight. I could've retreated when emma said I need to chill. 

a sullen silence, he said sullenly. 

I'm a bit of a wine snob.

He left me stranded in town. If the tide comes in, we'll be stranded

The very first round of interviews only serves to weed out the very weakest of applicants.

I wanted to retreat to my routines and comfort. Visitors can find plenty of restaurants when it's time to retreat from the sun, To save yourself, you sometimes need to retreat from the world.

Chuck that book to me. Chuck it over there the corner. Chuck me the keys.

I need to carve out some time in my schedule for exercise.

the rundown of the health service

• in all likelihood = very likely
• overcompensate 과잉보상하다
• aforementioned = mentioned earlier [AH]
• come rain or shine = whatever happens, no matter what
• as it unfolds -> this emphasises the idea of experiencing or witnessing in a real time manner, without expectiations or prior knowledge, predictions
• hasty {HEYsti} 성급한
• entanglement 얽혀있는 것
• out of the question = not possible / now allowed
• cash in on -financial advantage 를 위해 기회를 이용하다 take advantages of 하다
• raise one's voice = speak loudly
• withholding 주지않는
  (withholding tax- 원천징수)
• tie breaker 양측이 동점일때 판가름을 위해 하는 엑스트라 액티비티
• attention span 집중할 수 있는 시간
• interject 말 끼어들다 (let me interject on that)

The show displays a few entanglements of couples. One of these couples, this lesbian couple is especially very complicated. One of them can't help interjecting when the other one is talking. This couple, in all likelifood, is not going to work very well. They are very aware of this peoblem and because of the aforementioned habit, they overcompensate  for this problem, so ends up generating worse consequential issues, making hasty decisions and raising their voice. But even after the show, this couple is still together. I don't know if the show was withholding some parts and framed them like this bad to cash in on the drama they create. Tomorrow, a live streaming will be happening on social media. My attention span will be highly increase! We'll get to see everything behind the scene as the streaming unfolds tomorrow. Some people think they were acting and some people believed in the sincerity, so that one is going to be a tie breaker. Although the show producer seems to take a dim view of this streaming that could go out of control. Becuase of this they said viewer comment is out of the question, unfortunately. Anyway, the live will come rain or shine!

NOTHING will ever COMPENSATE for his lost childhood, His enthusiasm more than compensate for his lack of experience.

Chris overcompensates for his lack of heigh by being a clown.

Come rain or shine, I'll see you on Monday. 

I just observed and listened as it unfolds, I'll see how the match unfolds.

hasty decision, hasty conclusion, we were a little hasty in judging him

Her family has been accused of cashing in on her death

I know you're upset, but no need to raise your voiceh

• stoned = high 
• bulletin board 게시판
• tear gas (used to control crowds of people)
• put money/cash down = if you put down some money, you pay part
• ease up = to gradually stop, become less = to treat someone less harsh
• indoctrinate 가르쳐서 받아들이게 하다
• impersonal = without human wealth/ 이름 지칭하지 않고 it 등을 써서 말하는 것
• (add) personal touch 고유하고 특별한 퀄리티를 부여하는 것
• hit the sack = go to bed
• go down in flames = to fail spectacularly
• gullible 잘속는
• triumph 큰 성공, 성취
• vigilant 주의깊은
• revamp = change and arrange again to improve

I was so stoned and now the feeling started to ease up. Tears came out weirdly like tear gas was near. The first thing I tried to do was arranging a laptop deal, and they asked me to put some cash down. It was a pretty good deal, so I checked a few stuff - I'm not really gullible and I find myself pretty vigilant. Today I picked up the new device, it was pretty clean. I wanted to add some personal touch on the shiny laptop, so tried painting on the cover. It looked bad and it went down in flames kinda. I had to hit the sack. This morning I took a look at it again It looks messy and looks like a bulletin board in a way. This looks strange but If i had been indoctrinated that this is real art and beautiful, would that have looked good and a triumph? I planned for a revamp. I posted this on a website and I liked the impersonal approach when they criticised my work. 

If the father doesn't ease up on him, he's going to leave home.
At last the rain began to ease up.

Ease up on the accelator (to apply less pressure to)

we revamped the management system

They have been indoctrinated by television to believe that violence is normal

She has a very cold and impersonal manner. Hospitals always seem impersonal.

Impersonal criticism

They need to be more vigilant in checking bags